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COVID-19: My Diary – Part 1

Day 1:
Nothing has changed in our house. Etienne still needs to go to work, I still start at 7am and work from home and I still work on my own nerves.

My washing is done so there is one win for my Saturday pyjama party.

Day2:

Etienne and I have managed to be worse than couch potatoes today. I spent the whole day in my pyjamas. I did nothing. I did not even pick up a book. We watched YouTube music videos, movies and Friends.

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Day 3:

We were not as lazy today. I ironed, cleaned the kitchen and Etienne made pizzas. Our neighbour asked if she could bring something from the shops for us. It was just two items we needed for our pizza, but what a mission. Everything is almost out of stock. She could not find fresh ham and if you wanted pineapple in a tin you had to settle for what there was. So we got tinned ham (which is ridiculously expensive) and crushed pineapple.

Meh, aunt Marie always said it goes into your tummy broken any way, so we sprinkled it on our pizza.

I also showered. Yes, we did a pig day on Saturday. I told you, we were worse than couch potatoes.

My evening was not fun. I had a snot fest again about all the shit going on in the world and the uncertainty we are facing. I really need a 9-1-1 session with the Lord. Anxiety, fear and anger is going to be the death of me.

Day 4:

My day started at 06:15. I had to be ready for 7am. I am still busy with my steps challenge. So today I worked out a little route around the house and as I am seated 99% of my day, I get up and take a walk that takes me no longer than 5 minutes and it gives me around 250 steps. I also got my gym ball full of air again, I must remind myself to have my husband help me to lift my desk again. My (non existent) core needs some work.

I baked a chocolate cake in my lunch. This is for our date night tomorrow. Still planning on what we are going to have for dinner. But I have an idea. Who said we can not still have date night.

I am really having trouble reading my book. Pride&Prejudice. I really feel like just letting it go and add it to my did-not-finish pile. I just want to be able to say I read one classic. You know. I even wrote down a reading plan, but that went to shit. I will not be finishing it before end of March. So it is extended to end of April. Luckily I am on schedule with my reading goal.

I had the best chat with my friend on Skype. Etienne keeps complaining and saying he did not get a chance to speak, he was only present. Sorry if I chatted your ears of your head my friend.

Day 5:

Man, work just keeps getting more complicated. Airlines keep updating their directives and passengers are asking questions I can not answer and my brain hurts.

I finished decorating the cake for our date night tonight. I made way to much icing, but I am not disappointed with how it turned out. I am quite satisfied with my efforts. I just hope that it taste good.

Yoh, I had to much chocolate now. I wonder if I will be cured from chocolate after this lock down. Hmm, that is wishful thinking. I love chocolate way to much.

So far so good on the walking, but I will have to step it up or change my route or something. I know I am going to get bored one of these days. I am so glad we have stairs at home.

So, on the menu tonight for date night is chicken nacho’s, chocolate cake for dessert and The Breakfast Club. I hope it is good.

Day 6:

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1 April 2020. April Fools! This all was a joke. Would that not be nice? I told my colleague yesterday, I am still waiting to wake up.

Date night was a success.  We had some Chicken Nacho’s with beans and it was delicious, a bottle of wine, asked some would you rather questions and watched The Breakfast Club. It was a bit boring, but it accurately describes what high school is like. I still  love the song, Don’t you by Simple Minds.  Oh, we had chocolate cake as well. I baked it .

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Still working. For now we all still have jobs. I am grateful for that.

I am still walking around the house. My dogs think I have lost my mind. They, very enthusiastically, walk with me to the back and then when I turn around and approach the front door they stop half way and just watch me go. They kind of have this expression of “Woman, what are you doing?”. Shame, they really want to go for a walk.

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Etienne lost his mind yesterday. The dog poop had to be picked up. As he was busy he said that we will never have animals again. Nothing. We will have no trees at our next home (if we have to move again) and he will  make sure that not even a bird can fly over our house. He really does not like picking up the poop. I mean, who does? I had to laugh a bit.

Day 7:

Thursday. 1 more sleep and it is Friday.

Yes, I live for weekends these days (when I am not working) as I just can not take the pressure at work anymore. For some reason people think they can still travel in lock down. Have you been living under a rock?

The oven is now dead and our convection oven is not what it used to be. So my dinner I have been planning since Tuesday was a fail. I am very disappointed. I was looking forward to sticky honey and mustard chicken. *cries a bit*. My sister said we can borrow her little portable oven, but we will have to wait for lock down to be over. So I guess for now we will stick to anything we can cook on the stove top, the braai and 2 minute noodles.

Day 8:

Fancy Friday arrived.  I am wearing fancy clothes, make up, earrings, my wedding bands and I even did my hair. Well, I added a headband with a bling bow tie. This was the idea of Katryn Kruger. I feel very fancy today and I have to say better as well. It helps when you dress up a bit. This sitting at home is cramping my style. But then again, I permanently work from home, so my life is equal to “house clothes”.

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Washing is done and the house is tidy. Looks like we are going to have another lazy bum weekend.

We had a lovely get together at 5 with Katryn (from Koffie met Katryn). She did a live stream on Instagram and we laughed and chatted through the comment section. This recharged my battery. I love the idea and next week we are doing the same. I am already looking forward to is. She renamed it to Kwarentyn met Katryn.

Day 9:

We slept in a bit. It is getting more frustrating for me. I can not lie down that long any more now that both my shoulders are stiff. Well, the right arm is in process.

We did not do much. I had to clean the kitchen again as it looked as though a tornado went through it. Oh, the tornado is called Etienne. I should not complain though, he feeds me. Haha

Etienne wanted to throw away some junk and he checked, with the waste removal truck,  yesterday if the dumping site will be open. They told him it would be. When he got there it was a ghost town. Nice.

The rest of the day was spent sleeping and watching  Netflix.

Day 10:

Sunday used to be my favourite day. That changed in the last 2 weeks or so. When Sunday comes I feel my mood drop into my shoes and I have this dreadful feeling that tomorrow it is back to the shit storm that hit us.

Weekends are spent not thinking about this pandemic and trying to switch off. I guess that ain’t gonna happen if I spend 90% of my time on social media.

I am also very annoyed with people having this attitude that if you get out of lock down you should have cleaned the house, got a new skill and be the positivity yourself. But, you know it is okay to not have changed anything. At our company we are fighting to stay alive and just still have a job when all this over. This is consuming us from the inside. My colleagues, my friends, worries about what is going to happen if we do not make it. And some people still think this is a vacation. I am very happy for you if you do not have to worry and return to your job after this is all over just going along as if nothing happened. But, just once, stop and think of every small business owner and industries, like the travel industries, that is fighting to keep head above water. Be grateful you are in a better situation and stop “judging” if nothing changed for someone.

Rant over.

Etienne went to the shop today to get the necessary stuff and of course bites to eat, like chips.

I told him earlier today, I am really board. I do not feel like reading or watching TV anymore or knitting (well, I can not actually at the moment), I miss getting out of the house and just going for a stroll. That is something I really miss. And a cup of coffee and my friend’s house. He told to play TV games. We have this old school console with like 500 games in 1. It has Arcanoid, Pacman, Ice Climber, Battle City and Circus. Do you remember that games? It brings fond memories to mind. I suck though. Haha! I used to be quite good at it as a kid, but now I am old and the reflexes is out of tune. Still enjoyable though.

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We are going to “braai” some meat later and we have a potato salad on the menu as well. Good times.

It looks like rain today, I really hope we get some rain later. We need it.

Day 11:

Monday. Urgh. I am working the 11-8 shift till Wednesday. The planning got a bit mixed up at work and everyone on after hours is on leave. Oops. So I am helping out. I am regretting my decision now. I love the late mornings, but the late evening, not so much.

The weather is prefect. Rainy and miserable for some people, but I love this. I was just stupid enough not to dress warmer. For some reason I am cold then hot. Must be the hot flushes. Haha! I got to spend the evening under a blanket on the couch with hubby. This is what happiness is made off.

Day 12:

You can see that not much really changed in my life or routine. Although I have zero motivation. This might be due to the fact that everything is so uncertain and you have no idea what is going to happen next or what is going to be thrown at you. Well, most people are in this situation and there are people in worse situation where they are forced to go on unpaid leave. This is just a horrible time and my heart goes out to all of my favourite local businesses and people that are stuck at home without any certainty. I am thinking of you guys. I just wanted to say this.

I am very annoyed with everyone that does not have a care in the world and just going along with doing home exercise videos, baking banana bread (this is apparently a thing these days) or starting a new craft or hobby. Now, do not get me wrong. This is fantastic if you still have your job and you can just return back to work after the lock down as if nothing happened.  I might be still working but I might not have a job after this thing settles.  In a way this is so demotivating and at the same time good. Let me just add. In my annoyance, good on you for keeping positive and trying to cope in all of this. I envy you.

In some form I am also jealous.  I currently hate my job, which is very unusual to me. I love my job, but one of the most sucky industries you can be in at the moment is travel. I hate signing on every morning, dealing with people that is just disregarding everything said and done and going on as if it is all the airlines and travel agencies fault and how dare we try to stay afloat. Everything should be given for free.

“I should not be charged”,

“This is not my fault” (not mine/ours either),

“Lot of yelling going on”,

“Your service suck”,

“This is preposterous”

and the list goes on.

Also, I am very scared. Etienne still  needs to go to work everyday. We do not know where the people were before they get in contact with him and then when he comes home, I am here. I might be safe in my home, but Etienne is out there everyday risking his health and mine when he returns.

How can people be thinking of travelling? Money can be made again, your life can not be re-created. I have learned in this time that people are selfish, self-centred and does not respect each other. Screw the president, I will go out and disregard any precautions taken to save people.

I have to much to say and it will probably end up in a word war, so for now I will let it be. Just know, I am angry and I am scared.

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I finished Friends last night. I feel like I lost 6 friends.  This was my escape in this time.

Yes, I binged 10 seasons in a short time. However, I did start before lock down already. Fan for life here. I might have missed that boat by 13 years, but I am glad I stuck it out and watched it. I do not have a favourite friend. LOL! I can not make up my mind. They are all quirky in their own way.

I have to add this here. Just as a reminder when I go through this diary in a year’s time.

COVID-19 (Corona Virus) Pandemic declared 11 March 2020.

  • Petrol and Diesel Prices are R13.76 and R13.52.
  • School is cancelled.
  • Tape on the floors at the grocery stored and others to help distance shoppers (1m) from each other
  • Limited number of people inside a store, therefor, lineups outside the store doors.
  • Non-essential stores and business mandated closed.
  • Parks, trails, beaches, entire cities locked up.
  • Entire sports seasons cancelled.
  • Concerts, tours, festivals, entertainment events-cancelled.
  • No funerals
  • No masses, churches are closed.
  • No gatherings of 50 people or more.
  • You may not socialise with anyone outside your house.
  • There is a shortage of masks, gowns and gloves for our front-line workers (medics).
  • Shortage of ventilators for the critically ill.
  • Panic buying sets in and we have no toilet paper, disinfecting supplies, no paper towels, no laundry soap, no hand sanitiser, no bread flour, “braai pap” to name a few.
  • Shelves are bare.
  • Manufacturers, distilleries and other businesses switch their lines to help make masks, hand santiser and visors.
  • Government closed the borders and a travel ban was put on domestic travel.
  • Fines are established for breaking the rules.
  • Stadiums and recreational facilities open up for the overflow of Covid-19 patients.
  • There is a daily press conference from the presidential section lead by various ministers. Daily updates on new cases, recoveries and deaths.
  • Barely anyone on the road. You have to have a letter permitting you to travel to work and back.
  • People wearing masks and gloves outside.
  • Essential service workers are terrified to go to work.
  • Medical field workers are afraid to go home to their families.

Day 13:

Lucky number 13. I had to desperately clean the kitchen this morning. It looked like some kind of flour bomb exploded in our kitchen. Etienne made KFC chicken.  I took a hot shower this morning (hotter than usual) and I read a bit. I feel a bit better today. Yesterday was not a good day.

This lock down is busy getting to me. Like really hitting me. I was the one thinking “but why are you missing stuff now, it is 21 days, it is over before you know it”. But, I have not seen my friend in town, we share watts apps but it is not the same. I am not a fan of a telephone and like to see people face-to-face. So you can imagine that this is getting to me a bit.

This morning I asked my friend what she wanted to do when this is all over and I thought a bit of what I would like to do. This is what I came up with.

My to-do list for after lock down:

  • I want to go camping. We have a planned weekend for 24-27 April. I hope we can still go.
  • I want to go visit my parents. I owe them loads of hugs and love for what they have done.
  • I want to go to Sorbet and have a mani or gel treatment. My mom gave me a voucher last year fro Christmas which I still have to use. This is the time now.
  • I want to visit Tygervalley and have coffee at Seattle Coffee Company and visit Exclusive books.
  • I want to visit the library.
  • I would like to go for a long walk with the dogs with a flask of coffee and rusks.

I have this desire to be in a book store or library. It makes me think of that book, The Book Thief by Markus Zuzack. That really changed something in me. I was different when I read that book. I am like that little girl. I want all the books or just be around them.

So, this is what I want to do.

I started a new book today. It feels good.

I also watched a movie tonight,  Hook. It is a very old version of Peter Pan made in 1991. Was not too bad. I will not watch it again though. I have never been a fan of Peter Pan.

Day 14:

Hey, look! We made it to the 2 week mark.

It is not a good day today. I have to come to terms that my right shoulder is really freezing up exactly like my left shoulder. I am in a lot of pain and discomfort and very discouraged by this whole situation. I can not see my doctor till after the lock down, I have no idea what is happening salary wise at the end of April as  we have not received feedback yet and work is just a bloody drag.

There is one thing to look forward to. It is Thursday and tomorrow is a public holiday (Easter weekend) and I am only working on Monday again. Maybe I will be lucky and get an Easter bunny visit.

So, lock down was extended with two weeks.

Day 15:

Good Friday. The crucifixion of Jesus. We watched the live stream service from our church and Etienne and I had communion.

As a child we always went away this weekend. It is strange to be at home, but I am grateful to be safe home and with my husband.

I had an egg hunt this morning. Found loads of chocolate eggs! So happy.

Fancy Friday is still a go and I dressed up a bit. It means something different for everyone. For me it is to dress in my favourite denim and a favourite t-shirt. I am not a make-up gal, but I like some earrings and perfume. I like smelling nice. This is something I do not wear everyday because 1-I work from home and it is just me and 2- it is expensive. So, I keep my perfume for special occasions. In this case, Fancy Friday counts.

I also watched Katryn’s live video on Instagram. This is always a treat.

We stuffed our faces with hot cross buns and chocolate the rest of the day.

Day 16:

I took a break from the TV and my phone. I needed to breath. Everything is getting to me a bit.

I went into cleaning mood. The washing was done, I cleaned the hurricane called my kitchen and I also picked up the dog’s poop. I even ironed. So proud. So tomorrow I can relax.

We started watching Harry Potter from movie 1. We finished two.

When we went to bed my husband was wide awake. So I offered to read him a bed time story. Well, sort of. I read him The Grimm Brothers version of Cinderella. Quite different from the fairy tale version we know. It is so dark, I love it.

I managed to work in a few poems from my favourite book as a kid but before I could finish he was sound asleep. Job done. I have no idea if my voice lulled him to sleep or if the poem was boring. Who knows.

Day 17:

Etienne keeps asking me if I am going to the shop as he has been doing this for the past two weeks. I told him I am too scared and then I realised my fear is real. I do not want to go outside. I just want everything to end.

Today is the day we celebrate the rising of Jesus. He is risen. And He did it for me and you.

We are on movie 5 of our Harry Potter marathon.

The world has gone mad. I was tagged in a thing where you have to drink a raw egg, a shot sugar and a shot something alcohol. But why?!

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Day 18:

A Public holiday in South Africa. How useless it is at this time. We are stuck in our homes, most people are not working so it is not a free day. For me, it is just another day that I have to work. It is the travel industry. It never freaking sleeps.

My day started at 7.

You know a few days back I was annoyed about the feeling that everyone is just going on with their lives and making exercise videos etc. I saw this today and felt ashamed.

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Everyone is dealing with this in their own way and we should respect each other. I am sorry.

Etienne got me to go to the shops with him. I am so glad he did. We spent either an hour, close to an hour or just a little over an hour in the shop. I was just so happy to be outside. We did not actually need anything, but we came home with 3 bags.

I asked my sister how to do my own eye brows as this is something I need to do myself now. I got the below picture from her. She will also be teaching me how to tint it myself. I am quite excited. A new skill to be learned.

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Etienne started brewing pineapple beer, I hate the smell of it, but I love pineapple. I hope it does not explode.

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Day 19:

The first full day back after a long weekend  is the worst. I do not feel like working, the day is super long and it is now only 10am.

Etienne made us hot cross buns. He burned himself with the honey, dropped most of it on the floor and my kitchen floor now makes sticky sounds when you walk on it. The buns are super delicious!

I made the day, but #thestruggleisreal.

Our friends missed us so they sent us pictures and thereafter we all shared pictures. We have a group on watts app where we share and chat. The below was the result.

Day 20:

I had a face time date with my sister. I am using functions on watts app that I never really had to, but are now forced to because you know, lock down. It was good catching up and seeing her. But it is not the same. I need a hug.

We heard that our MD, head of HR and the owner of our company is going to speak to us tomorrow morning in a huge Zoom meeting about our salary matters. I am stressed out. Etienne too. I hate this.

I finished my 6th book. I am half way with my reading goal and it is April. High 5! I also started a new book, Bright Spots and Landmines. It has to do with Diabetes management. I hope I learn something. Would be nice if I can smash at least this monster again.

Day 21:

Lock down was suppose to end today at 23:59. I know you should not think like this but dammit, it would have been nice.

It is now 00:36 and I can not sleep. The Meeting. I am worried and anxious. I hope sleep will find me soon, so let me try.

I got 5 maybe 6 hours, could have been only 4, I don’t know. My head is puffy.

We had our meeting. A lot of tears were spilled.

I might not have a job at the end of this month as they need to let 70% of our people go. Everyone’s salary is cut with 50%. Nobody knows what is going to happen in the next few days and nobody is safe. You can imagine the worry and anxiousness consuming all of us at the moment. This is really not a great time.

My heart breaks for my employer. I am so sorry that you have to do this.

Tonight both Etienne and I will be taking something to sleep better. Heaven knows, we need it.

To be continued…

 

 

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